Wednesday, 17 September 2008
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An Allergy and a Headache....My old good friends.  Seleny...Angel 19:28:24 |
 | Do you have dreams?..
I do... I have a special copy-book, where I write down all my dreams and then underline, which come true...
But now I want only to sleep enough!!! I want to lie in the bed for the whole day and to watch DVD's...
And that's all! No! I also want to light the candles...
Lonely romantic)))
 Keane
Mood: I'm not sure
I want: To sleep for the whole day
Tags: Somewhere only we know, My life, My thoughts... |
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Tuesday, 16 September 2008
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| So difficult!.. Seleny...Angel 05:02:02 |
 | Damm, it's too difficult 4 me!!!
Everytime, when, I hear music, I start singing automatically!!!
It's impossible!..
I want to sing...(((
This stupid illness!!!
Silence
Mood: Bad
I want: To sing!!!
Tags: My life, SOS!!!!, Somewhere only we know |
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Sunday, 14 September 2008
Wednesday, 10 September 2008
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| I'm tired... Seleny...Angel 15:49:16 |
 | Stress, stress, stress...
I hate this word!!!
A headache, which has been killing me for the last 3 days.
Now everything is serious: I can't sing, I can't laugh, I can't talk too loud, I can't show my emotions...
Maybe I really need to become a robot?=)
Everyday I go to sleep at 9 p.m., 'cause I simply can't stay awaked any more. Even now I want to hug my pillow and forget about everything...
Real autumn is knocking at my window and nothing can stop it.
I hate autumn! Because of its rains and dark clouds...
It's raining outside...And now I feel so bad...
There are days in my life, when I want to listen only to Keane, Coldplay and Placebo... Here they are...
"If you wanna play it like a game? Well, come on, come, let's play"
Paramore
Keane
Mood: Awful
I want: To sleep and to get rid of this pain...
Tags: My life, My mood, Somewhere only we know |
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Friday, 5 September 2008
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| 26, 27... Who's next?! Seleny...Angel 05:03:42 |
 | More and more and all of them are boys...Damm! We need one more person to divide our form into to groups to learn EN and UA... This year everything is like always: Sel don't sleep enough, at 9 p.m. my head stops working and my body does everything automatically... And then: soft pillows. Ah, amazing!
And now I'm waiting for my friend to come and we'll go to school.
And do you know was is the first lesson? Physical training!!!Aaa, after the last year 30m I'm afraid to run! Sounds funny? Maybe, maybe... But the small scar on my stomach doesn't think so...
Well, wish me luck.
I hope I won't fall again)
Em, a club mix of a song
Mood: it's morning morning now, what mood are you talking about?!
I want: Long and long holiday!!!
Tags: My life, My thoughts..., School is sucks!, Wish me luck |
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Monday, 1 September 2008
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| It means nothing Seleny...Angel 17:39:55 |
 | I hate, when people feel sad and I can do nothing...
I feel sad too, I'm sorry...
A good person?
I don't think so!
This fear hides somewhere inside of me...
And I can do nothing with it!
Pain, pain, pain!
Deep inside of me.
Don't mention this, you won't understand.
Even I can't understand it at all.
"Kill one and you can save a thousand"...
Truth, but it hurts.
Maybe I'm the one, who is due to be killed?..
Ah, stupid, stupid thoughts!!!
I'm not thinking about killing myself!!!
To commit suicide?No! NEVER!
Background
Mood: LMA
I want: Hm
Tags: About nothing, [...Feelings amd emotions...], My life, My mood, My thoughts... |
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| The first school day, still feel cold and etc) Seleny...Angel 12:31:03 |
 | Only +10C above zero and I had to sing... I felt so cold, that my voice even were trembling, though, everyone only were talking about how good I was. I don't think so! The music were too loud, the wind was too strong, I felt too cold!!! Hm, maybe is just my self-criticism... Now I'm afraid, I might fall ill, as I always do xDDD As my cousin said:"You managed to fall ill, even in summer, when it is hot and you can get the stupidest illness ever"
And now I want to say, that the most comfortable, warm and nice clothes are sneakers, jeans and a warm jersey with a hood)))Talking about our class... Well, many really good guys left the school and entered thechnical schools. Now we have a freshman in our class and only 25 people in it. As earlier we had 35))
Maybe it's good, that the class became smaller, but now it's much more different, then it was before. I've never been really "open" to all my classmates, only to my friends, the number of who isn't more then 5)
Rihanna - Disturbia
Mood: --cold
I want: Warm!!!
Tags: School is sucks! |
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Wednesday, 27 August 2008
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| ~Mmmm~ Seleny...Angel 20:35:05 |
 | So strange...
Try to keep my hands closer to the candle to get warm...
I really feel cold. Again.
Mmm,fortunately, my cat made me feel warm, while lying on my legs=)
Feel better now...
Only 4 days left till the fall.
And I hate rains. I hate a dark sky... I feel sad and depressed then.
I don't need this.
Paramore
Mood: I'm not sure
Tags: [...Feelings amd emotions...], My thoughts..., Night Thougths |
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Tuesday, 26 August 2008
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| Cold, cold, cold, cold!!!Damm, so c... Seleny...Angel 20:24:37 |
| Cold, cold, cold, cold!!!
Damm, so cold!!!!(((
My hands are frozen...
My jaw hurts again... It's painful to talk, to eat, to open my mouth wide.
A Doctor? Well, she says not to talk for 2-3 week! But I'll never do this.
Maybe only when I get on a desert island))) But I never will)))
The only thing, that I can do is to wear a scarf=)
Keane
Mood: Em...
I want: I won't tell you=p
Tags: Night Thougths, Sleeplessness, [...Feelings amd emotions...] |
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Monday, 25 August 2008
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| My bed=))) Seleny...Angel 21:35:52 |
 | Today, I'm sleeping im ny bed, with my pillows and teddy bears xDDD
Yeah, be sure, I have Teddy Bears))) Three! A big one and very fluffy, a smaller one amd a Me to You teddy))) 
Here it is=)))Don't take it
Ah, I lost my mind)
Last two days I crashed with my friend. Her parents left the city and we decided to spend these weekends at her house. The weather was so hot and stuffy! Yuk! But, it was raining cats and dogs yesterday night. I couldn't fall asleep. I hate rain! I hate thunderstorm!!! I was lying in the bed and trembled everytime, when there was one more flash of the lightning on the night sky.
...Only 5 days left till the next school year. 10th form... I'm not gonna go to school till the 1st of September. No! No! No! That won't do! I have to disappear in the end of this week.. . Or simply not to pick up the phone xDDD
P!nk - So what?
Mood: Nicccceee
I want: Doesn't matter=p
Tags: Free-time activity))), {-Bo-o-oring-}, Night Thougths, Sleeplessness |
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Monday, 18 August 2008
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| {-Bo-o-oring-} Seleny...Angel 20:29:56 |
| MaX is offline, Sondra too...
Damm(((
So lonely! Only music is saving me now!
The only thought, that it is only 2 weeks left till the new school year, makes me wanna scream!!!
Fortunately, all teachers decided to get on their vacations in the end of the this month))) No one gonna call me, ask to do smth, etc. But, in case of what, I’ll disguise)))
I'm planning to leave my home for this weekend: spend a few days at my friend’s place, her parents are leaving the house, so, we’ll have fun, just like at the small “after-party” after my Birthday party xDDD Sounds so stupid!!! I won’t tell you about this...
A.R.M.Y. - Rain
Mood: Mmmm?..
I want: To talk!!!!
Tags: {-Bo-o-oring-}, About nothing, Sleeplessness, SOS!!!! |
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Saturday, 16 August 2008
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| Like always?.. Seleny...Angel 18:47:49 |
 | Yeah!
Again...
Everything is like always...
A saving SMS...
From my friend...
When everything seems to be so..."good")))
Cell phones were invented to call!
Why don't they?!
It happens everytime.
You try to choose the best song on your signal...
But what for?!
No one will call and you won't hear it.
And then you turn off the sound...
Vibration...
No doubt - Don't speak
Mood: Who cares?!..
I want: To talk to someone of my friends...
Tags: [...Feelings amd emotions...] |
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Friday, 15 August 2008
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| M-m-m-morning))) Seleny...Angel 07:54:35 |
 | The smell of coffee…. Ah. What can be better, if you went to bed at 3 a.m.? =))
A common thing!.. I was like always making avatars in Photoshop… For Kris… She’ll kill me xDD
Yesterday the Moon was very beautiful! I was alone at home and could watch at it, as long, as I wanted…
Milos - Yes and no
Mood: Sweet
I want: Nothing
Tags: My thoughts... |
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Wednesday, 13 August 2008
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| Earphones, my thoughts, Microsoft W... Seleny...Angel 21:50:59 |
| Earphones, my thoughts, Microsoft Word and a deep night. That’s all I have, perhaps, now…
My cat has just fallen down from the chair. LOL xDDD
Now I want to talk to someone, but everybody is offline… Dammit!!!
Tomorrow… Today I have to go somewhere!!! I don’t care about this stupid pain anymore!
Ah, I miss my friends… Where are they now?
Sondra is somewhere away, Izz, well, she sits with her small sister all the time, Kris, hm, she takes her “fire lessons” everyday…
Yesterday, I woke up at 14 p.m. This night I’ll be awaked till 3 or 4 a.m… OMG! It becomes like an illness… Sleeplessness! And then a cup of coffee for my breakfast.
Music, music, music… “Be running up that road, be running up hill, be running up that building. If I only could…” As I always say:
Izz was so shocked, when she read this xDDD
She's must be not sleeping now too...
S:"I have an allergy on smth"
Izz:“Dust, hair, washing powder, water or smth special?”
S:“Darkness, paint, dust, tires, old-school stuff…(underline what you like most)”
Izz:“I like darkness and paint! Close your nose and turn on the light! Or better call me! I’m not at home!” xDDD
NikitA - Rabbit
Mood: Do I have to answer this question?..
I want: To mix with someone!!!
Tags: Sleeplessness, Night Thougths, [...Feelings amd emotions...] |
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Tuesday, 12 August 2008
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| ~Night thoughts~ Seleny...Angel 22:38:53 |
 | “Sel, do you sleep at all?!” – very often my friends ask me this question.
The answer: Yes, I do=) But, lately, not too much.
Of course, on some days I can sleep till 13 or 14 p.m. And sometimes I can go to bed at 3-4 a.m. and get up at 7-9 a.m. Everything depends on how much coffee I've drank)))One my friend, her name is Kris, she made me to love this drink. But still, I can't drink coffee without cream. Mmmm... And now the "Coffeemate" has ended... Nooooooooooo!!!
Ah, this pain, I almost forgot about it. Music kills all kinds of pain. When I’m ill or just feel sick, I turn on music very loud! It conceals my pain… Instead of drinking pills, I listen to the music and hug my pillow xDD Like one person said: “It’s a beautiful feeling!” Yeah! It is! xDDD
The cat is sleeping on the chair. Why does she always bite everybody? An unusual cat, angry, old, but I love her))) In spite of all her, ee, disadvantages))))
Stupid thoughts, unreal dreams…
“Dream, honey! I believe, that all your dreams will come true.”
I believe in this too. I always throw a coin into a fountain=))) Or make a wish, when I see the 1st star on the night sky, or I stand between two people with an equal name. Sounds so damm stupid? Who cares? xDD
I’m a dreamer and this fact helps me to live! You don’t believe me? Well, ok. I don’t force you doing this. I just want to say, that dreams give us wings or perhaps, help them to grow) And one day I’ll reach the sky! Yes, I will!!! Without any doubt, I will.
Kelly Clarkson - Behind these hazel eyes
Mood: Unknown
I want: To go with someone to the movie...
Tags: Night Thougths |
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Saturday, 9 August 2008
Friday, 8 August 2008
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| Trash Seleny...Angel 20:34:13 |
| Today I decided to make a "room-cleaning"... Boah! I didn't expect, that I have so much trash in it! My mother thought, that I was evacuating my room before the repair OMG!
But now, when I've taken out all that old stuff from my room, it became much...aahhh, roomier xDDD
I've found so many different things from my childhood! Old pictures, copy-books, etc... Alive memories)))
The main topic, which is under consideration in our family, is the repair! So strange! And I'm so tired of all these talks... Ah!
I can imagine, how many old things we'll find all over the house! All those things, they remind me about my childhood, when evrything was different! Hm...
(Do not take this pic!!! It's made by me! All right reserved!!! Who'll take it, I will bite you!!!![]:-)](http://xywe.com/i/smiles/devil.png "]:-)") And I'm not kidding)
 NenaUndjetztstehichhierundwa.mp3 ( 04:49 / 6,6Mb )
Nena
Mood: Nice
I want: To talk to someone of my friends...
Tags: My life, My thoughts... |
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Friday, 1 August 2008
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| Solar eclipse Seleny...Angel 10:16:55 |
 | I've come back from the roof. Today from 12:15 till 13 was a solar eclipse. Of course, I simply couldn't miss this event)))
The view was so stunning!!! I've made some photos, but you can't see the solar eclipse on them((( Only the bright sun! I was lying on my back with two pair of glasses on my eyes and a roentgenogram. Even with help of these things it still causes a lot of harm to your eyes.
So, take a look! The pics are not so beautiful, like that view, but...
More…
Silence
Mood: So so
I want: To sleep
Tags: Pictures |
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Thursday, 31 July 2008
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| [...About nothing...] Seleny...Angel 21:08:51 |
| Ah! This stupid headache!!!! Only music can kill it! I don’t know why, but when I listen to the music, the headache hurts me less.
It was so nice to lie on the roof, to listen to the music and to watch clouds, running somewhere far away in the sky. It’s a pity, that only a little part of people really can feel the same, while looking at the sky.  (this is the view from the entrance to my little world=))
I can spend many hours, while lying on that roof and dreaming. This is the entrance into My Own world. The world, which still no one, except of me, can’t see.
Sounds so crazy!!! But don’t forget, that sometimes I can be crazy too.
But not only this evening. I feel so weak now. Not like in the morning, when we went to the cinema)))
But the film was sucks! Well, not really so sucks, but not a masterpiece at all. The only film I really enjoyed( at least this summer) was Wanted. It’s really a cool film!!!
But, now I’m talking not about my favourite movies…
To be sure, I don’t know, what I’m talking about at all…
Tomorrow, or it’s better to say today, I’ll go to school*crying*, to get books… The library starts working from the 1st of August. I simply want to do all these stuff with books and not to go back to THIS building till the 26-31 of August.
I think, that on the next week I’ll call up my teacher and start practising my English.
Damm, it’s almost a midnight and I’m still not sleeping. I promised myself, that I wouldn’t go to bed at 2, 3 and 4 a.m. anymore… For the last 3-4 days I went to bed at 4 a.m. Sweet, isn’t it?
Placebo - Running up that hill
Mood: Sad, but I don't know why...
I want: To talk to someone
Tags: My thoughts..., About nothing |
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Monday, 28 July 2008
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| [Morning tears...] Seleny...Angel 05:43:08 |
| I've just woken up...
"I wake up, it's a bad dream, no one on my side, I was frightened..."(c)
It's wasn't just an usual dream...Honestly, I see dreams very seldom.
In my dream my mom was dying... And I realized, that, when a really important person for me is leaving this world forever, most of all I'd like to talk to her!!!'Cause I'll never hear her voice and see her smiling...
But the worst thing, that I had nothing to say. I simply was crying... And when I woke up, I was crying too. And now small and clear tears are running down my face...
Keane
Mood: I'm scared. My dreams very often come true
I want: To talk to a good person
Tags: [...Feelings amd emotions...] |
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Sunday, 27 July 2008
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| A water fight!!!!!!!!! Seleny...Angel 17:05:42 |
| A hot, stuffy summer day... What can be better, that a water fight on the backyard my house?
I invited my friends and while they were surfing the Net and forcing my comp to do diferent things, which are in a common life are unreal for him![:-\](http://xywe.com/i/smiles/confused.png ":-\") , I made a cake(Yeah, I'm going crazy!!!)Here it is:
Then, after watching "Comedy Club", I suggested to have fun. We found empty bottles and sprayers))) Shall I continue?
As the result we all were wet!!! And then a nice pic - three girls in underwear, trying to dry up(By the way, don't worry, no one saw us )
A nice day... Damm, I'm my hair is still soggy
P.S. How is my pie?
The Ting Tings - That's not my name
Mood: Excellent!!!
I want: To repeat this day
Tags: [...Feelings amd emotions...], Free-time activity))) |
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Saturday, 26 July 2008
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| Sleeplessness Seleny...Angel 22:29:32 |
| I can't fall asleep again.
3 topics a day... Wow! I'm in a great form
What are all these thoughts for? Who knows?
OMG! It's already 1:14...
Tomorrow I definately won't wake up till 14:00.. If someone won't help me
Why am I writting all these stuff? It's simply useless!
Hm, once I succeed not to sleep for 24 hours Then my friend came to me and woke me up... Actually, she rang the doorbell and I was sleeping at that time.(Only 10 a.m.And I went to bed at 5...)First I thought, that she was a glitch, but when she started laughing, I realized, that she was real...
Conclusion: Don't spend lots of time, while surfing the Net, it may causes you glitches.
Thnx for attention!
Good night!
Sweet Dreams!
Silence
Mood: Sweeeeeeeeeet
I want: Sleeeeep
Tags: Sleeplessness |
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| ...A chocolate cake...=) Seleny...Angel 20:19:56 |
| Hm, one more time I realized how changeable can be my mood... In the afternoon I felt sad and now I fell so good!!! The only thing, that I miss, are my friends. Kate is somewhere in the other part of the town, Sondra, well, she is home now, but... I want to gather with all of them!!! At home, without parents, with music, a cam and a vacuum cleaner XD(Sorry, it's just one of my crazy memories=)))
I want to lie with them on my bed, talk about everything, listen to the music. I really missed that times.
I'll make a cake, with dark or white chocolate...=)
Ha, it even makes me laugh! It's so good to have memories. As some one said: Our memories is the only Paradise, from where no one can turn us out.
TH - Schrei
Mood: Good!!!
I want: Nothing)))
Tags: My thoughts..., My mood, My life |
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